It's already the end of October, sometimes I don't understand where all the time goes.

I've been thinking about how I ended up here, and if I'm supposed to be doing all of this. Is there a life plan or is life just a series of coincidences whose outcome is determined solely by timing? What is multiverse Michelle doing, the one that chose the opposite as me?

I don't know. I've been having trouble with the Truth, capital T.

I guess everyone is troubled with the Truth sometimes.

Saturday Night Live

October seems to be an important month in my life, what with the last two delivering me my mother's untimely death and my first date with Timothy, respectively. As it is also the beginning of fall and a reminder of our imminent delivery into winter, Octobers are a bit sad.

To try and head off the frownies, here's what's been making me smile:

• My family who gets crazier every year and loves to fight about where we go on vacation.  
  
• My babe who is on his way to great things
  
• My pup who is getting handsomer every day
  
• Old friends and big hugs
  
• A windy fall afternoon at the Modern Wing of the Art Institute
  
• Makers Manhattans
• Conan on at 11
  
• Gorgeous fall colors in the neighborhood
  
• Sunny afternoons in the backyard
  
• Bill Hader
• Long late afternoon family naps
• Portsmouth, NH
• Florida on Monday! 90 degree weather! AHHHHH